On the 13th of November 2013 I had a life changing experience which I would like to share with you, this was one of the first outward manifestations from my inner world. First there will be an extract from my morning Tarot reading, then a line from my dream I had the night before and finally the experience itself taken directly from my journal written that day;
'Card for the day - The Tower.
High energy today boy! Destructive possibility. If you are able to love nature today, you may clear all of your unwanted clogging. The old words that cloud your being. Return to the original source that resides both inside and out. Let power surge through you, THROUGH! No place for big headedness here, no! You are the meeting point, the cosmic axis of the universe (as we all are). You have not ejaculated for a while now, the 8th day to be exact. Love your life and the world around you, for it is your altar!'
'Dream - Zombies everywhere!! Lots of running through the woods hiding etc Very violent!'
'Well what a day this has been. The reading this morning couldn't have been more relevant.The day ended with me walking up Race Hill as the Sun set with JTD (Jess the Dog). I viewed the burning orange sky slowly fade as I pondered this place, the World, being the altar upon which I act. My body the temple where my emotional powers reside. It was as if a reversed viewpoint occurred to which I am used to. The Moon to my back, the Sun setting in front it was honestly beautiful.
I love being amongst nature, it must be respected. As I was about to find out. With the Sun going down I walked JTD back through a wooded area to a point where the trees in front arched over the path. I remember seeing a public footpath signpost and now I place myself back there, I know in fact I was at a crossroads. The beautiful symbolism! (My research into crossroads, the point where spirit and matter meet, most likely meant this acted as a subconscious trigger)
So at this most atmospheric of moments I found my mouth forming the words;
"Odin Father"
How dark it became.
JTD bolted off growling up a bank to the left. I felt confused as she had been lovely and well mannered all day. I saw a figure to my left which quickly vanished. JTD was growling ferociously hidden away somewhere, I called her as I tried to ignore the ice cold knitting needles in my spine. I stumbled up the bank to try and see what was happening, shadow figures flashing all around me. Suddenly I was convinced I was about to find a rotting corpse and pulled back. She was still growling so I pushed forward up the bank and crouched under the canopy of the low spaghetti branched tree she was beneath. I shone my torch to her face and she met me with wild eyes that looked straight through me, foam dripping from her mouth as she bared her teeth. I know now she growled at me. The energy was emanating from me. Unaware of this I tried to calm her down ignoring the whispers and figures which still danced. The atmosphere was truly alive and my senses were completely confused, I am not scared to write that I truly felt fear.
Something clattered in the branches above my head and JTD was off again. I looked up to see a black human like form crouched in the tree looking down on me. It then flew off in the form of a bird, unlike any other bird I've seen but crow like if I had to say. I shone my torch back down, pushing myself to see the body which did not exist.
I retreated back to the centre of the crossroads, I could not see JTD anywhere and it was dead quiet. I breathed as the tree in front leered over me. Energy rushed through my veins and I found myself throwing my arms up into a Y shape, invoking the ELHAZ rune which is of the same form. I shouted out;
"A trick!"
My thoughts came out of the choppy mess they had been in. I stood at the crossroads and thought of what I had read of Odin's nature, a trickster who met lonely travellers on woodland paths. It seemed I was living through one such trick, a theatre of extreme illusion. I felt so excited, buzzing fear mixed with insane pleasure.
I called JTD back as I continued to see dark shapes move around me. This time, thankfully, she came and I put the lead on her. Though I felt a touch more comfortable, I still did not have a clue as to what was going on. I was in another world and it was scary, but I felt so privileged. I let out a great cackle as to what was going on, like one you may hear in an asylum. Walking on I looked to my left to see the Moon shining through the trees, the figure of Odin constantly in my minds eye. I said clearly;
"I will listen to all you have to teach wise man!"
Then his figure appeared before me in the trees below the moon, his head momentarily formed by a fast paced dark cloud. I knew this was as real as anything we ever experience. I am honoured to have felt what I did and desire more. I have 100% belief in the otherworld, I wish to explore it and bring its magic into this. This, I feel, is my purpose. Nobody need cry for me the day I take my final bow out of this reality for I am excited by the prospect. Through this experience I have a new found respect for my life on the deepest of levels, I have been given the precious chance to know (as we all have) and I am going to bloody well run with it!
Thank you wise trickster, you have taught me much this evening I honour you! Perhaps one day I will meet both your birds!
ODIN!'
I would like to add from the present day that I would, on my departure from this world, like the whole of the globe to cry in unison. Please.
Peace be upon you dear reader,
Rednaxela
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